jenkoo.

Personally, I've never been on a diet... But I can certainly imagine it. I suppose the feeling of guilt when you reach for the chocolate bar you know you shouldn't eat but you can't resist it so then you eat it would kind of kill me inside. But you know the feeling when your mum asks you to tidy your room and you never seem to do it, I feel guilty over that sometimes. The worst feeling ever is guilt. But worse than that, is the feeling of liking someone so amazing just the way they are, and then finding out they don't like you back. This happens to everyone whether they like it or not. And we simply can't control it, no matter how much we wish we could...

I hate that lump in your throat when you see the person you like but know doesn't like you back feeling. It is horrible! I feel choked everytime I see you, hear your voice, or even hear you name. I've written many blogs about how I'm going to move on, it is a LOT harder than it sounds, trust me! Now I'm stuck between the feeling of do I wait and see if it all blows over, or have I waited long enough for something that might never happy again. Kills me a bit inside everytime I think of it. I suppose moving on is the best way until that is, you hopefully change your mind. So there I go.

Anyway, drama scripted performance is soon! My group are performing my fair lady, just without the music, its a bit difficult with the cockney accent to be honest! I hate year 11! And I can seriously seeing myself sleep the whole of next summer, thinking about sleep, I better go before I fall asleep in the middle of writing this blog! Nomomom a cup of tea too send me into a good nights sleep...