I can honestly admit I really don't care if you can see this, you know who you are. But at the end of the day, you obviously still care about me and our friendship to take your time and read this blog.. okay, most blogs I've written are pointless and stupid, but hey, at least I'm not sat there checking your page seeing if i can still see my name mentioned on there. And before you ask, I found out you were checking mine through a mutual friend. So please don't think I still care.

I suppose all I'm trying to say is just move on with your life. You're probably sat there now, denying you still care, but deep down, we both know you still do. I have no time or effort to care any more. Shit happens, pick yourself back up and move on. Do what you want with that life of yours, it has no concern to me. Take your friends and leave me be. Have a nice life, because next time I see you, I'm going to act like I never knew you, because you changed. You're no longer the person I knew. Goodbye.

Interesting to say the least!

All day it's been bugging me that I really want to do something different to my room for the winter, and I've been thinking, and doing a little more thinking. And yet, I still have no idea! I can't be bothered to paint it, as 1. I don't have enough money. 2. I don't have enough time to paint it. 3. I hate the smell of newly painted walls- it gives me the fattest headache ever! So, I still have to decide what to do with it..

Moving on to more boring things, I have decided to start to revise for my mocks next weekend. Even though I know they don't really effect my final GCSE results. But I'm one of those people who find if they do awful in their mocks, they will feel completely crap about their actually final GCSE exams. And then actually fail all her exams. ARGH. Not looking forward to the exams!

Friday and Saturday have been the funniest days in a while. Went to see the new Zac Efron film ''The death and live of Charlie St Cloud'', which by the way is very sad. And if you don't want to cry in a public place, e.g the cinema, then please wait until it comes out on DVD. I actually started to cry within the first ten minutes. Must be said though, Mr Efron's acting is getting better, and he is getting better look in this film, as it doesn't really have the same cheesiness to it as HSM. Then Liz and I adventured back to St Davids Two for a cheeky bit of Nando's. Which is always NOM. The funniest thing about this trip to Vue cinema was, we went for a bit of shopping and a starbucks before the film, just for something to do, then we had to make our way to the cinema, but we had no clue in which direction it was. I mean, I know where the Millennium Stadium is, and the bus station, it was just the factor of which exit out of St Davids Two do we use? It was confusing. So we had to ask these two old men that worked in the shopping centre which way the cinema was. So we asked. But because I was concentrating on not laughing at how funny looking these old men were, Liz nor I took any of the directions in. So we ended up getting lost.

Saturday a first, went to K2 with Beck Ry, and ordered a pot of tea. Which I have never done in public before. Must be said, nicest cup of tea I have ever had! Then we went to the Malsters to have a quick look at the newish lay out and all, but we got thrown out, as we aren't 18. Which considering we only attempted to buy chips and coke, was very disappointing.

I'll blog again soon, better be off to get some art coursework done. Save me someone?!

Even more history made.

EUROPE WIN RYDER CUP.

Graeme McDowell beats Hunter Mahan in the final singles match as Europe defeat the United States 14½-13½ to regain the Ryder Cup. - BBC! 


Ah g'won Europe! some other history making news, bigger than the Ryder Cup being in Wales.

Thank You Ryder Cup!

Wales has finally been placed on the map of golf! I can't say I'm a follower of golf personally, but I enjoy the random watch of the eighteenth hole of the golf of the television when I come home from usually a rubbish day at school! And lets all be honest, I'm quite a golfer myself. 

I have great memories of when I was younger, I feel so old saying that, of my dad taking to me to the famous to golfers cottrell park and having a good ol' attempt on the driving range. And the other day, meaning back in the summer holidays, for the first time I reached fifty yards! That was always my goal when I was younger. 

Anyway, apart from the Ryder Cup sounding very interesting, I am currently loving it even more seeing as most of the schools in South Wales have inset days today, to stop the increased amount of traffic on the motorways and around the Celtic Manor, where the Ryder Cup is being held. And for the first time, Bishop have been included in the number of schools with inset days!

Considering the weather today in Wales, is chucking it down with urm, so called rain, I'm glad I'm sat in the warm wrapped up in a pink and yellow Peppa Pig blanket!

I honestly don't know why I am writing this blog, but I felt I couldn't miss the opportunity to miss out blogging about the Ryder Cup! 

Anyway, going back to the subject of the rain... the golf is currently being suspended until the rain stops.. good fun... lets just hope it stops soon!

Personally, I've never been on a diet... But I can certainly imagine it. I suppose the feeling of guilt when you reach for the chocolate bar you know you shouldn't eat but you can't resist it so then you eat it would kind of kill me inside. But you know the feeling when your mum asks you to tidy your room and you never seem to do it, I feel guilty over that sometimes. The worst feeling ever is guilt. But worse than that, is the feeling of liking someone so amazing just the way they are, and then finding out they don't like you back. This happens to everyone whether they like it or not. And we simply can't control it, no matter how much we wish we could...

I hate that lump in your throat when you see the person you like but know doesn't like you back feeling. It is horrible! I feel choked everytime I see you, hear your voice, or even hear you name. I've written many blogs about how I'm going to move on, it is a LOT harder than it sounds, trust me! Now I'm stuck between the feeling of do I wait and see if it all blows over, or have I waited long enough for something that might never happy again. Kills me a bit inside everytime I think of it. I suppose moving on is the best way until that is, you hopefully change your mind. So there I go.

Anyway, drama scripted performance is soon! My group are performing my fair lady, just without the music, its a bit difficult with the cockney accent to be honest! I hate year 11! And I can seriously seeing myself sleep the whole of next summer, thinking about sleep, I better go before I fall asleep in the middle of writing this blog! Nomomom a cup of tea too send me into a good nights sleep...

Throw away friendship.

Friendship isn't a throw away cup or an old magazine by the way. It's something you have to cherish, and look after. Just like an old teddy bear. Anyway, I don't seem to understand how anyone in the right frame of mind, can throw away a friendship and then completely forget about it. And it never cross your mind again. Funny eh?

A day for something new.

Well today, I made history. For anyone who knows me well enough, will know I honestly cannot stand going anywhere on my own. I just don't like not having anyone there to chat too. But today, I thought I should put a stop too this. Man up, and go to town on my own.

Oh wow, it was scary to be completely honest. The bus journey was, urm, different to say the least.. So then, I got into to town, got off the bus, and I found ti kind of strange actually not having anyone next to me to decide where to shop first. So I headed to good ol' Primark. And bought myself a lush new wooly jumper, which I love to say the least!

I'm proud of myself to be honest. I bought myself a new pair of jeans which actually fit, and a starbucks. Oh and how that was yummy! Looking forward to my next trip to town on my own to say the least. It was a nice time to clear my head over a few things, and suddenly become the independent person I've always wanted to be, but been to scared.

Giving up.

Dear you (you know who you are),
I've suddenly come to the decision that you are simply not worth all this pain. I suppose I should have learnt by now, but I didn't want to admit I'd lost you for good. From now on, I am going to look to the future and forget about the past, so please don't go and fuck up my mind again. Because honestly, I can't be bothered to deal with you and your drama. You will probably say that about me too. But hey, your the one to blame for my drama mate. I want you to remember I loved you, and you meant the world to me. And you always will. And I will always love you. But I need to move on, and find someone who's going to look after me in a way you never did. Goodbye my lover, hello my friend?

Dear unbelievers,
And by the unbelievers, I don't mean people who don't believe in a religion, because I honestly am one who doesn't know or give a frank about religion anymore. I mean the type of people who didn't really help with all his drama and mess he made. Oh, yeah. You would know if this is being written to you when you read this mate. I give up, I hope your happy. Now I can't get hurt, and trust me, you wont have to put up with me and my going on about him, because I wont be from now on. Thanks for the support. Oh wait, you didn't give me anything. Jeez thanks for that!

Dear Mr right,
Oh hi there, I hope I don't know you yet. But to start things off, I'm Kate. What a thing to say when your reading this stupid blog thing I do so I don't have to do school coursework. Anyway, Thanks for being Mr right. Your such a babe already. I know I will love you once I know you. Thankyyyyyyou! ♥

Missing.

It's funny when you miss someone so much how fast a year goes. It's been a year since my Gramps died today. And surprisingly I've stayed strong throughout the day. But I suppose now is my time to have a little breakdown because I can't handle the fact I miss him so much. That's only natural!

Today was also our first day aloud out in year eleven. It was pretty boring to be honest. I don't see what all the fuse was about. It's nothing special. In fact I don't think I liked it. The Co-op by school was jam packed, so you couldn't really buy anything, because everyone was waiting for each other. But I did, I brought bread and jelly tots. I realised today, how much I love jelly tots, seeing as I haven't had them for about 2 or 3 years!

Heart Aches, Stomach Aches and I suppose Re-takes?

I have the most horrible stomach pain ever for the past few days. I've felt sick and everything. Just wanting to sleep all the time to be honest. I suppose nothing changes with the whole me wanting to sleep all the time business.

Everything is back to normal I suppose. You could call it all a re-take if you wanted too. I suddenly feel that, maybe, I might have another chance to make things right, for the better. To correct the worst, and move on. Not too sure about the whole moving on idea, but I suppose, it's that or a heart ache? Oh, how life is confusing.

Just realise how middle aged this all may sound.. Ah crap, I wasn't going for that look onto things like this, my blog. It's suddenly given me a new distraction than Facebook! All good fun!

Anyway, really looking forward to the weekend. hopefully off to town with Lizzie, and then out with a few friends in the night? Ah I hope this weekend goes well!