New people. Strange feelings. Wishing. And meeting again!

Okay, I can do meeting people spare of the moment. But, honestly one thing I can't cope with is meeting your friends boyfriends friend, who is also single. And who you added on Facebook the day before. The thing that doesn't help the most is when you both honestly don't know what to say to each other. I mean no one is to blame apart from myself. I seem to act like a total freak within minutes of meeting them. Which really goes down not so well. I either can't get my words out, or do a weird but funny to my friends dance. I suppose it's not my fault. I work myself up, get all butterflies in my tummy, and boom, there they are right in front of me. It's not like I don't know what to say inside my head. But getting my words of is my problem. And if I do manage to get them out, they come out in the stupidest order, and I either make myself look like a right numpty! Or I end up saying something which inside my head sounds completely innocent, but to them sounds like something a girl you only just met shouldn't be saying. Or worst comes to worst, I look like a complete slag, because my shorts ride up as I walk. Sounds like fun doesn't it?

But then, the worst feeling ever, is when you get home with blistered feet. Ah, damn, shouldn't of put a full stop there. The worst feeling ever is not only blistered feet, is the feeling of regret. That may have been your time to shine, show them how amazing you truly are. And it's spoilt in minutes. And then, you can't quite recover like you do in front of your friends, by saying 'blaaah' when you can't get your words out properly. Because then they'd think you're even more of a numpty. Good fun. I suppose I should title this blog, how to spoil a new found friendship in minutes of meeting a person. Hm... 

Now, I'm sat at home, with folders of coursework to complete before I go on holiday Wednesday morning. Which is practically tomorrow night seeing as it's in the early hours of the morning. I sit here wondering, wondering if I will ever get the chance to meet you again, and not be in such a panic, and not embarrass myself just as much, but only a little. That thought is going to be on my mind for a while, I can tell. All is left to do, is wait. Hopefully today's a lucky day for me. Get another chance tomorrow, I wish. 

Or maybe someone is trying to tell me something. Hmm... So much to wonder over. I honestly don't know what to think. I just hope this feeling disappears soon!